i wanted to watch something small and happy before i went to bed and it was on my watch list so i did that. right off the bat i felt the worst feeling in my gut. i connected the dots why the main character was narrating from the future so immediately i thoughht things were gonna get bad, i didnt read the description because its what i dont do often, but i cried 90% of it and the main i felt for shin is a pain i can not describe anything ever. the actors did amazing and i truly want to give both the actor shin (james) the biggest warming hug ever because he deserves it. the shock factor was there, it was all there. you never really see any dramas or shows in general showcase mental illness like depression, self harm, and so on. i indeed was right feeling the gut grenching bad feelings from the start but i did not know it was going to be this bad. i can tell most of the time or infer what may happen but oh my god. i just had to express my feelings on here about it. the ending absolutely broke me (again!) and i love when dramas end right where you have to fill all the gaps by yourself but this one. it felt, i honestly dont know how to describe. im just putting words together and such because its almost 4am but i just need to talk about this.