I honestly don't know how and where to start.
One random day, I came across Ashes of Love on Netflix. I didn't check what it is about and I just saw the trailer. I found it interesting and decided to TRY to watch. I THOUGHT IT WAS K-DRAMA! I was so surprised when I realized it's actually a chinese drama because I wasn't really big on watching any asian dramas before.

I think what makes Ashes of Love special to me is because it's everything unexpected. From not knowing it's actually a c-drama and the first asian drama I finished from start to finish.

Here are my thoughts about the show -
THINGS I LIKED:
* DENG LUN, DENG LUN and DENG LUN
* Childish banters of Xu Feng and jin mi
* Friendship of jin mi and Yanyou
* Friendship of Jin mi and Matchmaker
* Matchmaker being and Xu Feng and jin mi shipper
* Loyalty of floral generals to their late goddess
* Cheerful personality of jin mi
* The characters' development from being child-like to mature personality
* The soundtrack!!! Just one note from the soundtrack brings me right back to their world
* Liuying and Muci's storyline
* Wind immortal's personality
* Xu feng's badass-ness

Things I didn't like:
* Evil people at demon realm are so annoying
* I know this is the point of the story but I hated that jin mi was given the yun elixir because Xu Feng has always been clear with his feelings. This is me saying this if I were jin mi.
* Suihe just wont give that shit up omg i wanted to kill her myself
* Tuyao is worse lol
* I think there are too much flashbacks?

General thoughts:
* Xu feng and jin mi's love story touched my heart so much. Their journey was satisfying but when they reunited at the end at demon realm it felt lacking for me. I kind of wanted to see them finally together more on screen specially at the very end. I hope there was more screentime finally together.
* Luo Yunxi delivered Runyu very very well!!!! He became so hate worthy when he's becoming super obsessed but it only means he's such a great actor
* I never once attempted to fast forward scenes because of how much I loved it. Now I rewatch it to go back to xu feng and jin mi scenes, but on my first watch I dare not forward anything.
* They have outstanding costumes
* I think Yanyou is underrated, I find him very loyal to Jin Mi and such a good friend
* Kuang Lu’s loyalty to Runyu is also underrated and I admire her character for that

When I finished the last episode, I started crying as if someone broke up with me. I cried for a long time just listening to the soundtrack. I feel like I just parted with someone very important. Everything just felt nostalgic for me. I'm very high risk to panic attacks due to mental health issues and my heart just felt so heavy because I love this drama so much and it will be forever in my heart. Even just going back to fav scenes makes me so emotional. It really hit me good.

Disclaimer that everything above is not EVERYTHING I feel about the drama. There’s many many more and I just dont know how to explain it.
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Update: 2 months after watching this drama and I really can’t bring myself to move on. Unfortunately i’m not a good writer and I can’t express just how special this drama is to me but im just so!!! idk :((( i can’t explain.