I have to say from the trailer I have not expected it to be so emotional. It looked spicy and dramatic so I thought they'd be more bed scenes but I'm not disappointed at all or anything. I love bl matured stories and EarthMix are just fit for them as they give the vibe of experienced and matured duo. But I'm most amazed by First. His role of Alan was pretty heartbreaking and dramatic. I was looking forward to his first scene because I knew he'll make it pretty dramatic. The storm after the sun. His role was also pretty matured. Even after harsh break up and losing the person he loved to the man that appeared to be his client. He acted so professional in his work but he still couldn't hold it in anymore and visited the Chicken diner. When he saw how happy his lover is with that man and even after seeing how he's broken, Wen still cared more about Jim, it really shattered his heart apart. When they showed their happy moments, I really wanted to cry cuz even this lovely moment can turn into hate making me think about all my favorite couples and imagining them like this too which really broke me.
I have to say there was big contrast between Alan and Gaipa. It may not be so visible but Alan was the one witnessing everything, knowing everything, being aware of the harsh reality while Gaipa had his hopes up, he didn't see Jim being happy with Wen, he was not aware and so his love continued and he was happy just unsure his love is mutual and then it broke. He confessed and got rejected, he tears were so pure. But not only losing his hope, he even lost the person he cared about the most soon after losing his father. He became suddenly orphan with no one to rely on. I was so happy when Alan confronted him and wanted to help him with his financial situation. Alan grew up and visited events where JimWen were too. He stopped living in the past and focused on his work and current life. As he talked more and more to Gaipa and knew how emotionaly damaged he is, he got liking to him. I liked how he was gentle and patient with him and show him empathy because they both went through a lot of pain. Seeing both of them making each other happy again melted my heart. If there was second season, I'd love them to be the main focus. Their backstory, Gaipa losing his father and Alan exploring his sexuality with Wen. Sharing their sad backstories and being each other's support. They are both who give everything in nothing in return. They are both willing to change for the person they love and they both leave empty handed questioning why they are not good enough.
Second couple that caught my eye is Li Ming and Heart. Knowing the actors had to learn sign language for their lines really shows how much effort they put into it. Li Ming was everything Heart needed the most. A person who tries to understand him, pays attention to him, treats him as normal person without any boundaries, learns to communicate with him to get closer to him, shows him the world he never knew and gives him ambitions for his future. Li Ming was actually the most matured person in this series changing even the adults as Jim and Jam and Heart's parents. He knew no gender when it came to love and gradually felt to Heart something more than friendship wanting to touch him, hug him and kiss him. They had many adorable scenes together and brought the happiness to our hearts when the scenes were too dramatic. It's great in the end no one wanted to separate them as they saw how strong is their love and even let them study abroad together. Everyone in these series grew up so much which is the most satisfying ending I'd say. Even irresponsible Leng taking care of his girlfriend and son. This is the longest review I wrote as I had so much to say. I loved everything here just not the amount of episodes as they were too short! I hope to see more works like this in the future with matured content but not sexualized scenes but the harsh true of reality. I want R rated contents to be like this. No sexualized r*pe, no toxicity between male leads and not showing it as something hot. It's wrong.