This is one of the saddest and darkest bl I've ever watched and I think I never wanted the two main characters to be happy this much before.... Normally most of the bl characters are just characters to me and most of the time I don't even bond with them but I just wanted Haoren and Chihiro to be happy in this series... I cried in multiple episodes, everyone portrayed their characters so well (I know every Japanese bl has good acting in it but this series is another level..)
And you think Chihiro has a sad backstory and then Haoren's backstory just slaps you in the face in episode 4.. I never felt so disturbed and sad in any bl before I swear..

I don't know what else to say but watch this series if you are strong enough..